Hustle Sauce

I’ve always been about my business when it came to my hustle and getting things done to me if it wasn’t about money I didn’t really too much care that much about it. There wasn’t too much I wasn’t trying to d11796425_1031290960217192_3619320807773567075_no to make ends meet by all cost whether it was 1234 or 5 kids I got to the money on a daily so if they don’t tell you nothing else I bet they say I ate when it came to the hustle. See when you have kids it’s like no matter what you do you’ve got to survive who wants to be known as someone who wasn’t about taking care of business when it came to her kids lol not me . That is one thing I promised my self was to always stay true to my kids and do things the right way so they can follow it took me a minute to really say forget the street life I had to live solely for my kids and my kids only . I even took risk helped so many others and didn’t even get the love back in return for so many good deeds it seemed like I done it was times when I
took in other families for the holidays made sure they had things as well times I took in family members who needed the help to . I can remember working 2 jobs and going to school to make sure my 3 kids and 2 sisters I had custody of at the time had it all . I was always the first person everybody seemed to call they knew I was gone get things done regardless of the outcome over the years I grew out of the always quick to help stage after seeing no one had my back like I did and I focused more on my grind so I could get my money up in position for what my next moves were . My life always seemed to take many turns for the worse struggling trying to stay above water you would never believe even though I had a strong hustle hand I was bad with money now don’t get me wrong I was big on investing in things to double back my money but I also had a spending issue . It was a stress reliever it felt good just to buy something so just think the more I bought the better I felt I would go to Wal-Mart in the middle of the night and shop for hours but there was a catch to that as well I would shop for sale or clearance items the cheaper it was the more stuff I could buy even if it was $1 I’d just buy them all . Now the only way I got away with this was by starting a non-for profit youth program I’d give it all away every year at Christmas to families in need for the holiday . But don’t get me wrong there was a downside to that having to explain to my boyfriend that I wasn’t cheating and was actually at Wal-Mart for  hours and also having to argue about buying so much he would often call me a hoarder which made me feel a little crazy . But no matter the case it never stopped my hustle if it was something I wanted and 11796425_1031290960217192_3619320807773567075_ndidn’t have it all at the time trust me I put in work and got it no matter how long it took I didn’t have to worry about someone saying what they did because I always made sure I had it . its seems like I have an endless grind to me my imagination runs wild with ideas at all times I’m sure if I run into the right person to back me and have as much faith in me as I do ill be a millionaire over night but I understand patients and also the laws of attraction I’ve changed my ways of thinking over the last few months to make sure I come out on top because there’s no way a person with this much drive and ambition can’t make it to where I’m trying to go my ultimate goal is financial stability for me and my boys so that were comfortable nice and full because right now I’m starving it seems like I have an empty plate I make being a single mother of five boys look easy now just imagine whats coming soon this grind won’t stop  until I’ve reached the top and like I said before “we’re up next”

                                     D’Estin Perry

Fear of repeat

I was raised without a father I mean I knew who he was and I seen him around but he was never there in my life to know what he was missing or why I always had a frown . I always wondered what having a father was like or how it would feel for him to teach me how to ride a bike.  I’d often seen my siblings leave on the weekends and I’d sometimes ask if I could go standing there praying their dad wouldn’t say no. He took me in like I was his own but I was often reminded by my sister that he wasn’t my dad and I should go back home . I grew up searching and scrambling for the love of a man it was just to hard to believe to hard to understand why my father never loved me what did I do wrong I always kept my mouth shut even about the things that happened when I was alone . Yea I know some things are better left unsaid but then again you’ll never imagine the thoughts that constantly run through my head . Born the same day wow you would think that it would be embraced but every year he never showed up and the tears always rolled down my face . After awhile I became num to the fact that I’ll never know what true love from a father was really like I’d often get angry and so mad I just want to fight . I’ve grown into the stage of letting things go giving the situation to god because this is one thing I’ll never know but the fear of repeat is what I’m afraid of my boys growing up without that tough love . I try hard to mend things the best way I can I know it’s somethings I just can’t do and one is teach them how to be a man . Fear of repeat is one thing I’m so afraid of my boys growing up with out a father to show them real love.

Who is D’Estin

PhotoGrid_1468884008786Something I know that was asked frequently No one ever really knew who I was just of me and that’s what made it so much harder. Often people judge you off what they hear not actual facts. I was often misunderstood by so many hearing stories I didn’t even know about myself and would be surprised . I’m actually a very outgoing warm-hearted always ready to help loving person. But where I’m from I had to become this monster I wasn’t . I grew up with nothing but heartache and what seems like I wish were all bad dreams. But what i have is countless stories of battles i had to fight to get to where i am now. People often say “child you got a testimony” . But in my mind it’s still hard to believe that i actually survived so many battles even though it was many times i was ready to throw in the towel i trusted in him to get me to the next step. I lost a lot of people on my way but i guess they say everyone is like seasons some i just can’t understand and took me awhile to let go but i must say some was nothing but in my way of being great I know this step I’ve taken was for the better and I can see the success from a mile away but I got some stories to tell and a few things to say some may relate some may disagree but I want the world to know who I really am and why God chose me.